I'm packing to go away on tour for another three weeks.
I don't feel excited or anything. I can't remember how I'm supposed to feel or how I felt the first time I went away like this.
I'm playing the Mixtape for Mellisa gig in Sunderland tonight then I'm in Nottingham tomorrow. I just snapped a string on my guitar while getting ready and I was a little worried that I wouldn't be able to get a spare in time for the gig tonight with it being bank holiday but it's cool.
Everything's cool, I think.
Monday, 24 March 2008
Monday, 17 March 2008
The closest of calls
The entire last year of my life flashed before my eyes.
I'm still finding it hard to take it what's gone down in the last six hours, but I'll try my best to put this into words.
It was a complete fluke accident and I can't even blame myself (really).
Those of you that are familiar with who I am and what I do will probably know that I do all of my own recordings and that I've been recording my second album since the beginning of November. I do my recordings on my Apple Powerbook which is cool because I can take it with me wherever I need to be. Well tonight my laptop had the mishap of being involved in a run in with a glass of coca-cola (like I said - it was a fluke accident and could not have been forseen). It went dead instantly along with the complete masters of my new album and everything else I've recorded in the past year.
Spending hours trying our best to come up with a solution made me question everything I've ever believed in and ask myself some pretty big questions which I guess I can share:
1: What did I do to have this happen?
2: Am I going to be able to get the last year of my life back?
3: If not, how long will it take me to do this again?
4: DO I REALLY WANT TO DO THIS AGAIN? Or AM I GOING TO?
5. Where do I go from here?
The answer to question four was no. Something that I've been stuck with all night.
It was the first time in my life that I've actually felt like I needed to justify doing what I do.
I knew that I certainly wasn't going to record this album again. If I did still do an album it would be something new and completely different, but even then, I don't feel like I have it in me right now to write a new album.
So I went back to where I was a year ago. Do I leave and go traveling? Maybe, I do.
Several hours and two car journeys later. The laptop is internally dry and we've narrowly managed to salvage the masters of my album onto an external HD. I have more on my mind now that I've gone through this tonight.
Where should I be? And how much faith do I actually have in what I'm doing?
All I can say right now is that I believe that time will tell.
What else can it do?
This aside I'm looking forward to going out on tour next week. Maybe I'll find some truth's there.
I'm still finding it hard to take it what's gone down in the last six hours, but I'll try my best to put this into words.
It was a complete fluke accident and I can't even blame myself (really).
Those of you that are familiar with who I am and what I do will probably know that I do all of my own recordings and that I've been recording my second album since the beginning of November. I do my recordings on my Apple Powerbook which is cool because I can take it with me wherever I need to be. Well tonight my laptop had the mishap of being involved in a run in with a glass of coca-cola (like I said - it was a fluke accident and could not have been forseen). It went dead instantly along with the complete masters of my new album and everything else I've recorded in the past year.
Spending hours trying our best to come up with a solution made me question everything I've ever believed in and ask myself some pretty big questions which I guess I can share:
1: What did I do to have this happen?
2: Am I going to be able to get the last year of my life back?
3: If not, how long will it take me to do this again?
4: DO I REALLY WANT TO DO THIS AGAIN? Or AM I GOING TO?
5. Where do I go from here?
The answer to question four was no. Something that I've been stuck with all night.
It was the first time in my life that I've actually felt like I needed to justify doing what I do.
I knew that I certainly wasn't going to record this album again. If I did still do an album it would be something new and completely different, but even then, I don't feel like I have it in me right now to write a new album.
So I went back to where I was a year ago. Do I leave and go traveling? Maybe, I do.
Several hours and two car journeys later. The laptop is internally dry and we've narrowly managed to salvage the masters of my album onto an external HD. I have more on my mind now that I've gone through this tonight.
Where should I be? And how much faith do I actually have in what I'm doing?
All I can say right now is that I believe that time will tell.
What else can it do?
This aside I'm looking forward to going out on tour next week. Maybe I'll find some truth's there.
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